Double W- Meeting #2

Good lord...when did Double W meetings get so...deep and therapy-like? I have been to my fair share of meetings, but this one takes the cake. For starters, the 30-minute meeting lasts 50-minutes (the same amount of time as a traditional therapy session, coincidence?). There seems to be such little focus on food and actual nutrition, but rather, childhood and past actions that are causing people to rely on and use food.

Listen, I'm all for people uncovering the secrets that led them to make poor food choices and experience a long battle with weight. I've done that, I've been there. And to be honest, I'm still doing that. Part of me knows that I'll always be doing work on that front. But...I do not go to a Weight Watchers meeting to hear all of these stories and listen to women put themselves down.

Last week I thought I'd made it full circle by the end of the meeting...I was planning on going back and felt like I could deal with my current meeting. But after this one, I'm not so sure.

Let's stick to the positives though, I lost 5.6lbs. I know that you typically lose more weight in the first few weeks, and I'm okay with that, but I'm still celebrating that as a huge success. For the first time ever that I've tried Double W, I didn't try and cheat the system this week and really followed the program the way it's designed to be. I know, what a novel concept!

Anyway, I'm still on the fence about this particular meeting, but I'm keeping up with the program and the running and feel like the combination of the two will put me in a good position to succeed with the marathon and everything else I want to accomplish.

I'm excited by the potential all of this has to make a positive influence on my life. And although the past two meetings have been crazy making, they have significantly influenced my resolve to keep at it. For the first time, I heard women say that they feel like they'd be disappointed if they reached their goal weight. Even though it meant that they would have been successful in managing their weight and all that stuff, they feel like they'd be in a constant state of disappointment trying to maintain their goal weight. This made me so sad. So sad in fact, that I spoke up and asked them how they couldn't recognize that just getting to goal was a huge accomplishment. But it didn't matter...when you're in that place of not being kind to yourself, it can do such terrible damage.

So again, full circle here, although I can't stand the therapy-like meetings, I recognize their value in helping me see how far I've come in my attitude towards myself and how important it is to be surrounded by these people to see what I have moved away from and hope to not go to back to.